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I am blogging from my phone...hehe. So we'll see how that works. I managed to do absolutly nothing today. My bf and I got into some close fights today but we both managed to give each other enough space and not kill each other. He's going over to see his mom tonight so that gives me some time to play the guitar and hopefully fall asleep early tonight. I want to go running tomorrow. I need to lose some of this weight. I feel so fat lately, and that's part of the reason I am so senstive lately. He's been purposley pushing my buttons and I am so fucking predictable. And then "I'm not being patient".AHHH, it angers me so much. How can I love this man so much and him piss me off to high hell?

Unusual world insight #1

Hi,

I have the weirdest unusual life. I say this because things appear to me that I believe I only get to see. In this observation I have no one to share the bizarre emotions, conflicts/situations, and I will always have a comment about it. I'm not sure who will ever see these comments but I'm sure you wont have the whole story and I hope you never find out who I am, as this is my private insight that I share with God knows who.

I know I have come off as the biggest bitch to the people watching. And I have no doubt that I am probably, in most cases, am being a major bitch.... but what the gawkers (as noun) do not realize is there is so much more to the story.

I should probably write these thoughts in a diary or journal. But i never take the time to sit and write. But I am always on the computer and I am hoping with my phone I can access the internet and write a quick blog. It's those moments where I say, "man I wish I could share this with someone," and no one specific comes to mind to tell. I wonder to myself if I am the odd one. I wish I wrote in my journal more.

I am a college graduate, who's been with her boyfriend for almost 2 years, and we have been living together for over a year. I am so in love with him but it has been hard lately because his father died 5 months ago. Everything that comes with death has happened and we starting to pack the boxes to his fathers house. We soon have to say good bye to his fathers home. My boyfriend is trying to get through it. I am not sure where he is and there is some tension growing between us. My love hasn't changed but the overall Ora of our relationship has changed. And it seems the harder we try to make it work the more impatient and insensitive we are to each other.